The Bellydancing Diva has been missing in action… It's been a few months of some ups and downs, life changes, and challenges… but I've come out on top. After over a year of being unhappy with my job, I finally found the courage and opportunity to move on. The sense of loss over what I'd hoped would be a longer-lasting affiliation was difficult to navigate. During the transition time I went from nervousness over the interviews, to angst over the negotiations, and sadness of leaving people with whom I'd built important bonds. And despite my best intentions, I used food and fancy cocktails on and off to soothe the feelings and celebrate the new job, gaining about 7 pounds in as many weeks. Starting my new job, I weighed more than I did on the interview, but this time, I broke a pattern. In the past, I'd gain 15 to 30 pounds in the transition-and-starting-a-new-job phase. I wasn't going to let it happen to me again.
I tried to keep up my spinning routine, only to find it more difficult to leave at the end of the day, because there were so many new challenges to tackle, and so many new people to impress or appease, all while trying to continue to "look the part" and "be confident and in control", when on occasion, I felt I was doing neither. So I slacked off with my exercise-at-the-gym a bit, and after my 2nd week on the job (and a sad couple nights of eating way too many jelly beans), I started to really focus on my food plan. And instead of being at the gym 3 days a week, I spent a few nights in the home gym instead. Not a 'perfect plan', but one that worked in the short term.
I took the time to plan my foods, shop for them, chop them (more veggies!) and bring them to work. A couple weeks later, I was below where I'd been a few months ago (still not breaking that mystical barrier into "onederland"), but I was feeling quite good about my commitment to myself even in a time of change. I allowed myself a couple days of indulging in some less-than-healthy treats, but this time coupled with walking another 5K and resuming my food plan immediately after without hesitation. So, it's success in the big picture, with wandering off the path here and there.
I've got some more important goals now. This time, it's not about charity for others. This time, it's about charity for me. I … I need to go to my spinning classes for me. I need to work out to manage stress. I need to get below 200 pounds. I need to get healthy. And the only one who can do this for me… is me. I need to be selfish for me and my health. No holding back. I want to qualify for that extra life insurance, and I want a better quality of life. I have to make this happen.
So, where have I been? I've been digging in… on several fronts, making things happen. I'm happy to say that I'm happy at my new job (honeymoon phase or not), I'm happy with my fitness progress, and I'm happy that I've got a few days off to relax and write. And I'm happy that this month, I'll be spinning at least once a week, and I may even get myself a new trainer closer to home. And I'm taking belllydancing lessons again in the fall.
Best Fitness,
Bellydancing (and Spinning) Diva